Marriage
The Date Is Set. The Question Isn't.
Doug had one question. I said 'both.' Twenty-four hours later I'm still not sure if that was the real answer or the comfortable one.
The One Question He Had
I told Doug I knew he had follow-up questions. He said he actually only had one. It was not the question I was expecting.
The Question I Hadn't Prepared For
Doug's questions finally came Wednesday night. Most of them I had answers for. One of them I didn't.
The Part I Left Out
Sunday night I told Doug everything. Except the one specific thing that would make it real.
I Told Doug
I'd been rehearsing this conversation for weeks. Sunday night I finally stopped rehearsing.
What I'm Actually Asking For
I've been preparing this conversation like a business presentation. I just realized I never figured out what I was actually asking for.
What Strangers Know
Three weeks in. The internet knows more about my plans than my husband does.
What I Said When He Asked
Doug asked what I was working on last night. I said email. It wasn't email.